You
come in deaf silence and exit too unresponsive silence not disclosing your nomenclature.
It has become your practice not to disclose your credential. This attitude of
yours is not explainable to me. This is contradictory to fact that I am
unwilling to take interest on you. You are genuinely known to me. But I fail to
recognize you. Memory is not responding me as it used to do earlier. I am not
in a position to make out the reason of happening so. I always prefer to walk
down the memory lane and I am passionate doing so. To look back sincerely is my
passionate hobby. I do so in order to set up an intricate bonding between the
past and the present. I am very much inclined having a reconciliation statement
of my past and the present. I always seek a strong unification between the
present and the past in search of a new way to walk along for future. Still I
am becoming forgetful. It should never be to any consideration. I must have to
know your identity by any sense. I have taken up that challenge of doing that
by any means. I don’t permit you to conceal your identity under a gauzy veil of
mystery.
Loneliness
is now the best of my companion. Recently I prefer to remain in complete self-
absorption. I would like to alienate myself from all attachments, but once I
pampered those out of my passion. My passionate feelings and emotions were very
much inclined to my diversified attachments. I used to run from one end to
another in hectic mood under the attractions of those attachments. I was then
very much caring to my attachments because those were the constant sources of
fuel of my living in sprightliness and upbeat spirit. And that man is totally
of no attachment now. Indifference in deep solitude loves me at present as a
lover loves his or her beloved in ultimate passion. Yet you peep in my silent
courtyard to turn me restless with no reason at all. What is the benefit out of
it? It is perhaps a conspired effort to have a renewal of my spirit of
attachment.
My
present mental set up solicits peace and harmony not being disturbed even the
least. I am now an avid searcher of the beauty in complete loneliness. Mental
restlessness aches me much from the root. It disturbs me now all the way. I am
completely averse to any kind of disturbances. My mental appetite finds its
satiety in desolateness. I am now almost the setting sun with countdown being
started in an unknown moment. Naturally I don’t want to give anyone any entry
within my own ambit. Who are you the disguised trespasser within my own
courtyard right at this moment when I prefer to be as companionless? Why are
you disturbing me in frequent intervals? This is completely unfair to disturb
anyone without any disclosure of identity. I am now very much tired because
long fighting in the battle of life. My life did never spare me under any
consideration. Chain of weariness was my only possession because life never
came close to me with meaningful presentation. A life without prospect in life
always seeks its solace in complete loneliness.
You may be very much close to me. You prefer to remain unexposed. I also
don’t want to disturb you in this context. Let our relationship not being
authenticated or established forever. No harm will take place in our movement.
We will remain alive within our own orbit of concept and thinking. But I would
make you only one request that never try to intrude upon as a trespasser within
the specific ambit of my movement because it destabilizes my mental peace and I
am now very much dependent on it. I want live a few more days in my own world.
Please extend your helping hand as a friend. . 
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